Relationships

What you are about read sounds depressing. However, I like to think of it as a brutal reality check for infatuation and broken hearts. It holds significance in my own life in the past. It is the reason I am able to push through relational disappointment before the sun goes down. (envision a drill sergeant telling you this)

She can like whoever she wants,
She doesn't like you (me).
She could invite anyone she wants,
She didn't invite you (me).
She can say anything she wants,
She didn't say what you (I) wanted.

I have no rights. I deserve nothing. I have no privileges.

Its called telling it how it is straight up and saying "so what?" I will tell it how it is!

I am not ready for a relationship. When the time comes I will be glad I did not give my heart away to anyone else.

I dont have a reason to shed tears or feel sorry for myself. Life isn't fair and I am glad. If it was then I would have no eternal salvation or relationship with my God. So in these times where I feel injustice I need to think about the grace and mercy I receive and understand that I don't just pick and choose who I want to have a relationship with. Im not the best thing since sliced bread. There are probably plenty of people who don't like me and as my dad would say "you can pick up your toys and like it or you can pick up your toys and cry about it." So I can live pouting about my imperfection or I can live with joy.

And so this is my joyous lament; one that states the truth, holds no grudge, claims no rights, and sheds not tears. It is not depression or disappointment. It is enlightenment. It is a newfound humility that leads me on the paths towards wisdom described as more precious than rubies. It results in a stronger bond with my God in heaven.

So I will wait for that woman. I pray everyday that he will send the right one along and I trust he will. In the mean time, I must press on towards the prize, making God my irreplaceable center.

My response?
moving on!